Hi girls
After having my tiny bit of breast surgery I came home and had quite severe
pains in my back and across the waist. I don't think it was anything to do with
the surgery, just coincidence that this has happened around the same time.
I was due to go to onc three days later and when I got there I was admitted
for various scans, the results not yet reported and need to return to hospital
tomorrow. (home on weekend leave) I need a brain scan, have had a bone scan and
whole body CT scan and 17 bottles of blood drawn for testing. Most of the tests
came back OK but as my son flew over to see me I was depsarate to come home,
hence the weekend leave but I particularly asked that the onc did not give me
any results on Friday as I wanted, preferred, not knowing until Monday (unless
it was something that couldn't wait two days.)
I have spent most of the weekend in pain, in bed, and even though I have taken
over 100mg morphine today, in the last 8 hours, I can't get completely out of
pain though some is reduced. My poor son has spent most of the time running
around doing jobs for me and fetching me drinks and lunch. So much for his visit
over here which has turned into a nursing weekend for him ~ not that he minds or
complains, bless him.
I don't think I have ever felt this ill, normally I just get on with things,
get stuck into cleaning, tidying etc or some task but this time I am completely
shattered, no energy can be summoned at all, but not only that I also have no
brain power to talk myself into getting on with something, I have no desire to
do anything except a couple of times I have been on this site and checked my
other emails but my physical and emotional strength has just gone today.
Is there anyone out there who is taking high doses of morphine ever felt like
this, did your thinking skills fail you or any other symptoms you can tell me
about? A friend rang today and it was an effort to think and converse, I just
wanted her to get off the phone and had to say, 'this is all too much for me I
have to go to bed.'
If you have had high morphine doses long or short term did you ever feel like
this? I ask this mostly because I take a lot of morphine either for bone pain or
jawbone pain but never before felt completely zapped, the way I am today.
Love to all, Velvet (UK)